Saturday, May 17, 2008


There are a couple of things that I am ready for, that I have been waiting for, been patient for and they are Love and Freedom. My life is real stagnant right now and I am too young to be making statements like that. This cowardly fear of failure is hindering my achievements of success. I am trying new things, but I guess not a fast enough pace. life is to be lived and I only have one life to live so I need to get out of the what ifs and what maybes and just DO. I have been living on yout.ube watching other peoples lives or them living once again I am the observer and not the actor. I think it is high time I switch roles. I don't want to feel like a prisoner in my own home. I have no friends partly by choice and partly because people are trifling. The Love issues is important because I have never been in love. I have had people tell me they loved me and I try my best not to lie especially with dealings of the heart so I have not reciprocated the statement. I feel you have to know someone inside and out in order to say I love you. I am processing but like India Arie said I am Ready for Love...


Anonymous said...

first off I would like to say that I very much like the way you express yourself in words.

What you have written in this chapter is word by word displaying how I often feel. I got so many ideas and really driven by the desire to finally start my own business but yet something always keeps me from doing it. My biggest problem is that I keep on focusing on the negatives "like can I really be better then my competitors" or "is my business idea what people really want and need"? etc. etc. Is just terrible b/c I am loosing so much time. I know I need to finally get of my butt and just do it!

have a good day, mija

Jess Living said...

Thank you for your kind words. We will make it! : )